I'm tired of acting like its okay, because its not.
it fucking kills me that he can for the last what, i guess four years feed me this bullshit, how he'll always care about me, how no matter who hes with i'll always be above that.
and now, i don't get those texts everyday or those phone calls. in actuality i try to talk to him, and i get all the wrong responses.. I didn't just spend the last 6 months constantly fighting for nothing. i just hope that he'll understand what hes ruined.
i can't move on, i try.. i do but i just realize everything i miss, and how everything we have is so much better than what i can get.
i hate love.